Hello everyone! I just want to start off by thanking you all for your support and following of my blog. I have greatly appreciated seeing the views and comments created by you. As it is, my diaper supply is beginning to dwindle, though I still have a decent supply. As my supply shrinks I will be weaning myself off of diapers, but I suppose that was going to happen someday.
I gotta say with what started off as a strange dare/challenge became quite the adventure. Diapers at first were… well awkward, they made me uncomfortable, and really self-conscious. I mean here I was at the age of 24 wearing and wetting diapers. What would my friends or family say? I never thought I’d truly get used to them either, maybe to some degree, but not to the point that I would be comfortable in them, that’s for sure.
What I thought I might never truly get used to started to become a comfort. I found diapers to be all sorts of comfy, not to mention convenient when you’re busy. Eventually I started to like how they made me feel, I felt safe in diapers, they were my special few people knew about. I felt special, and extra awesome. Even now I feel more normal going to sleep in diapers now than I do without. After I got used to the idea of wetting myself I did realize it was pretty nice not worrying about going to the bathroom. Though it may seem silly I think some of the diapers can be cute even, especially the Bambino Bellissimo diapers.
With this experience, as I got more used to diapers, I did worry about losing control, actually needing diapers, but as time went on, I became more curious. Thought if I did lose some control, what would that really be like? As this whole adventure went on, I remained curious, wondering what it would have been like to lose all control over when I peed. Would I get scared? Would I be happy? Or would I just go on living nothing else really changing? Perhaps that will happen in the future someday, I know a lot of you support the idea, hee hee.
I have received diapers from a number of you in the past to make sure I am in them as long as possible, but unfortunately as we all know, diapers are not cheap, and without a cheap source this will be coming to an end. As it is though, that made me wonder how many diapers I really have left…. so I counted them.
As you can see I have quite a few left, 184 to be exact. I guess I overlooked a bunch in the back of the closet. I guess that’s what I get for keeping them in cardboard boxes. XD For now I will remain 24/7 until the supply is closer to being gone, when I have a couple weeks worth left. We’ll just have to see where things go from here I suppose. Depending on how heavy the wetting is, it could be in them anywhere from a month to two months before I run out, but I’m guessing somewhere in the beginning of October.
From all this though I really wonder, I mean I was in diapers for a year, what could I of done to make myself lose control more quickly? Talking with one person, they suggested hypnosis. As silly or crazy as some may say it is, I would like to try that, I would like to be completely bladder incontinent, and if hypnosis would help, then that is something I’ll have to try if given the chance again. Have you heard of anything in aiding someone in becoming diaper dependent? What helps it happen quicker, or helps with wetting without consciously being aware of it?