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All Things Come to an End

Published October 20, 2014 by diaperedgirl

This last week has been one full of a lot of emotions, stress, and frustrations. In some ways, diapers makes it easier, because I have one less thing to worry about, I can just let go. In other ways it can make things harder when you’re worried about diapers being noticed, whether it’s the smell or the bulk. Or the worry about being able to change when you need to. Due to that, I had reduced my time in diapers over the past week, until eventually I wasn’t in them at all. I know that is the opposite of what I said I’d be looking to do, but let me give you an idea of has been going on.

Lately I’ve been stressed at work about a number of things include, but not limited to financial issues, my injured ankle (from my trip to Colorado), and problems with my girlfriend. It’s hard to force ones self to make more money, but you can try to budget better, which I have been trying for. In some regard savings are building up, but it never seems to be fast enough, or in large enough amounts of money.

I hurt my ankle on labor day weekend in Colorado. It’s not broken or anything, but it’s strained bad enough that I can’t do a lot of active things I like to do, that help me deal with stress. From biking, to workout classes, to dancing. All of these things are difficult if not impossible due to the pain. All I can do with that unfortunately, is to take care of my ankle and hope it heals up quickly.

Then to the biggest thing on my mind lately, my girlfriend and I… we’ve been dating since late June, and we’ve definitely had lots of fun together. Hanging out, going on trips, playing videogames, cooking, I love it. We’ve had a blast doing all the things we’ve done. Have we disagreed? Fought? Yea, I mean, who a hasn’t? We always got past it though. The real issue ended up being something completely different. She is, and has been madly in love with me. It’s obvious in what she tells me, her actions, and more. The issue is, I only see her as a friend. As much as I care about her, love spending time with her, I am not now nor have I  been romantically attracted to her. With the drastic difference in how we felt for each other, I knew it couldn’t last nor end well. After thinking about it a lot, I decided we needed to talk.

I invited her over this last Saturday and we talked about us. Although we both want to try to stay friends, we have broken up at this point. I had a number of friends who have been there for me since the breakup happened, which has helped a lot, but right now, I’m just trying to organize my life, figure things out, and see where things go. I don’t think I’ll be posting for a while, especially since I won’t be in diapers often if at all.

You are all always welcome to message me on yahoo messenger or send me emails at agirlandherdiapers@yahoo.com. Perhaps someday I’ll be back in diapers full-time, or perhaps not, but we never can truly know what the future holds. We just need to ride things out, see what happens, and make the best of it. <3

Everything so far

Published October 9, 2014 by diaperedgirl

As of today, it has been a little over 2 weeks since I’ve been back in diapers full-time. Now while I have had every intent to be in diapers 24/7, whether day or night, alone, with family or friends, a few snags have popped up in that plan. The first weekend of being back in diapers, I had a few hours where I was out of diapers. I had done this because I had been invited to participate in a photoshoot. Traditionally I may of been able to get away with thinner diapers like Goodnites pullups or something else, but due to the nature of the shoot, it was either no diapers at all or resign to having them be very obvious. Other than that though, I’ve been doing my best to stay in diapers 24/7 even when I have gone to the doctor’s office.

Another issue I’ve been running across, is the smell. The diapers I use are wonderful and hold a lot, but due to that, I’m in them a longer period of time. With being in them so long (sometimes upwards of 12 hours), the smell becomes very noticeable. While no one has outright said something about a strange smell or anything smelling bad, I notice as time goes on, that the smell is VERY apparent to me. I can only assume that some people that are near me notice it too. The last thing I want is for this to become an issue at work or when around my family.

On top of that, I am finding that I don’t always want to be in diapers. Some days I just want to be naked at home, other days I want to wear panties. This can either be just a desire to wear panties or to wear outfits that diapers just don’t work with, which tend to be my more fitted outfits.

Some positive things though, I am very thankful for being in diapers when I’m busy, especially at work. It makes it a lot easier when I can stay relaxed and not worry about the bathroom. They are also wonderful when I’m relaxing at home, or just waking up in the morning. Wetting myself is getting easier and easier, though I still don’t wet in my sleep. It has only been 2 weeks though, so we shall see what happens there.

With these issues, I’m not sure how long I will continue this time. If this will go for the full 6 months, or not. While being in diapers does have its upsides, the downsides are there too. This will be something I’ll be thinking more about as time goes on. I would love to hear your thoughts and feedback.

A Little Update

Published September 30, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Hi there everyone! ^_^

I haven’t been doing anywhere near as many updates as I’d like to, so I’ll give you a more comprehensive one this time. As of this morning, I’ve been back in diapers for a week. Overall it’s going well, and wetting myself is getting easier each and every time. At work, sometimes I just start to go when I’m sitting at my desk. Obviously sitting at my desk is a more relaxed state than walking or standing, so I believe it’s the first area I’ll notice it getting easier. It’s still a bit of a challenge to go when I’m moving around, though once I start, it does just come out.

The Absorbency Plus diapers definitely have their upsides, but also some downsides as well. It’s wonderful how absorbent they’ve been. I only use about 2 ever day. I usually put one on after showering when I get up. I then don’t need to change again until around halfway through my shift at work. That diaper I’ve been staying in till the next morning usually. Downside though is since they hold so much, they do bulk up a bit. On top of that, the smell does get a bit strong towards the end since at that point I’ve been in the same diaper for 8-12 hours depending on if it’s the one I wore to bed or not. So far though, no leaks, which is great! Even if they do happen though, I do have my mattress cover in place. :)

Overall lately, I’ve been spending time with my girlfriend, and things are going alright. We had a nice date over the weekend and saw the movie Maze Runner. I thought it was pretty awesome, and having a diaper on during the movie was great! A few weeks back, I’m also trying to build my savings back up, so I’ve been doing overtime at work. All those things have meant that I’ve been  more absent from the blog and my yahoo messenger. I do apologize about that, but I do plan on doing my best to keep in touch!

Have a great week! <3 <3 <3

Very soon!

Published September 11, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Hey there everyone! I hope you are all doing well. I know things have been busy and crazy on my end, and I hope to catch you up with this post :) Recently I went on a backpacking trip to Colorado. It was absolutely fun, though I have to say, might not be able to do that so well once I’m in diapers full-time. Just the issue of carrying all the diapers used and not in and out of the park. I went on this trip over labor day weekend with a good friend of mine and my girlfriend. While we had fun in general, the trip showed some flaws/issues my girlfriend and I have in our relationship. It really made me question whether we should be together or not.

We ended up getting together at the beginning of last weekend to talk about it all. It was a long conversation, and not a fun one, but I think it was one we both needed. While you can never know for sure how a relationship will turn out, we’ve decided to give things a little longer before any big decisions are made, so we shall see how that goes. In the mean time, we’re going to do our best to enjoy our time together, and communicate the best we can.

Now I’m sure many of you are excited for me to get back to diapers, and rightly so, after all it starts very soon…. only 12 more days! It would seem it is probably a good idea I get back in to diapers soon with an experience I had recently. Last week, a friend of mine was celebrating her birthday, so after work I joined her at a bar she wanted to go to. I definitely had a lot of fun, and a few drinks. Had to use the bathroom a couple times which was fine, until I had to go at the end, right when they told everyone they needed to leave. On top of that, another person needed a ride home, so here I was needing to pee and giving someone a ride home too. I ended up getting them home just fine, and got back to my place, or at least the parking lot… As it was I ended up losing control after I got out of my car. I didn’t expect anything like this at my age, at least not until diaper training had been underway, but I wet my pants right there in the parking lot… I’m just glad it was late at night and I was alone. I was sooooo embarassed. Due to that happening, you can see why I’d be thinking it’s good I’m getting ready to be back in diapers full-time.

I did get my order in for my first case of diapers, which did arrive yesterday. For those that are wondering, I did decide to go with Absorbency Plus, Level 4 diapers as my diaper of choice. (http://www.xpmedical.com/absorbency_plus.html) At this time I will be wearing just these ones, day and night. I’m hoping it will work out rather well without being too hard to hide. :) I am still in the preparation stages for this though, and will be ordering a mattress cover soon so I don’t have to worry about night time leaks.

At this time the original plan is to stay in diapers for 6 months while trying to make myself completely bladder incontinent. I will be attempting that by making sure I drink lots of liquids day and night to help practice keeping my bladder relaxed, while staying in extra absorbent diapers to ensure my confidence in my diapers. I am still looking at hypnosis to help aid in becoming incontinent, but don’t have anything picked up/figured out for certain. After talking to my girlfriend about this previously, she did mention liking the idea of my staying in diapers beyond the 6 months. At one point she said “If you end up enjoying it, why stop?”, so she seems to like the idea of me remaining in diapers.

Now that also depends on a few things. If we end up breaking up, then I’m not sure I will continue with this, or at least not beyond the 6 or so months. Part of the reason I decided to do it (not the entire reason, just part), was that she liked the idea of me going back to diapers. Another thing is that while doing my best to save up money while still having a little fun, money may be tight. If it comes down to it, I may need to stop if finances do become an issue. That being said, we can hope for the best, and I hope to have you all with me on this journey to diaper dependence.

Have a great day, and stay awesome! <3

A wee bit curious

Published August 13, 2014 by diaperedgirl

As we get closer and closer to my starting time to be back in diapers 24/7 and to start my diaper training, I’ve been thinking a lot about it. Obviously I’ll be in diapers all the time, with the intent of becoming bladder incontinent, just like my girlfriend wants. I’ve been wondering how long it’ll go for though. I know on one hand I shouldn’t worry about it, and it would be better to just let things happen, but I do wonder… I’m curious what you think though.

  • How long do you think I’ll be in diapers?
  • How long do you think it’ll be until I am wetting the bed every night?
  • How long until I need diapers during the day?
  • How long do you think I should remain incontinent?
  • If/when I attempt pottytraining again, how long do you think it will take?
  • Do you think there is a risk of becoming stuck in diapers?

I hope to come up with other interesting things to write about soon. Also, I am looking to order my first case of diapers to start up my supply soon. :)

Wow…. that was unexpected…

Published July 6, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Last I posted, I told you how my girlfriend and I were going to talk about me trying diapers, and get her thoughts on me in them. Since then we’ve hung out a few times, and I’ve learned quite a few things about her. :)

I was nervous about being in diaper in front her so the first thing I did after getting home was take a nice relaxing bath. After that, I put a diaper on (one of the Absorbency Plus diapers) along with some sleeping shorts and a shirt. I was nervous to say the least about my girlfriend coming over and seeing me like that. When she arrived and I answered the door, she didn’t say anything about, but I suppose she couldn’t see my diapers. She could definitely HEAR them though. For most of the early part of the evening, everything went like normal, we watched a movie, cuddled, and she did grope my butt, though she didn’t say anything about it yet.

After the movie was over, we started to talk more about it. She told me how she liked the submissive aspect of me being in diapers, and even potentially using them. She seemed to be ok with me being in them, so I figured I needed to ask her something. I went ahead and asked if she wanted to see me in diaper, to which she responded yes. Nervously, I went ahead and removed my shorts, exposing my crinkly (yet dry) diaper. She immediately told me I looked all cute, sexy, and adorable. At that moment, I was really happy, thinking “Maybe she would even kind of like me staying in diapers”.

As the night went on, we kept talking about it. She told me she liked it for a few reasons, one being that if I was wearing diapers/being a baby, she would get to take care of “her little girl”. She liked how extra cuddly I was that night as well. We continued to talk about the idea/plan for me to be in diapers from the beginning of Fall to the end of Winter, and she definitely seemed on board with that idea. We also spoke briefly about titles, dom/sub, big/little, mommy/baby girl. Since she had already started calling me “baby girl”, I went ahead and called her “mommy” to which she started to give me more kisses and cuddling. :) I ended up falling asleep snuggled up to her while sucking on my thumb that night.

That’s not the end of this post though! In the following days, we talked a bit more about me being in diapers, actually using my diapers, her being my mommy, etc. We decided that next time we hung out, I’d be in a diaper again, and try using them, with her there with me, to be supportive. We were also going to try a few other things.

That night, when she came over, I was already in my diaper, but this time in jeans and a t-shirt. When she came in, she asked made comments about me being “her cute baby girl”. After telling her I was diapered already and a quick inspection, it was determined that my diaper wasn’t visible under my jeans. With that confirmed we headed back out the door to the store. We had decided if we were going to try the whole idea of me being her “baby girl”, perhaps we needed to try a few other things with it.

At the store, we immediately headed to the baby section. Once we were there, we started looking at different baby bottles and pacifiers. We ended up deciding on some pacifiers with cute kitties on them, and a 3-pack of bottles. One has giraffes :) After deciding which ones to get, we made our purchase and headed back to my place.

After getting back, I filled up one of the bottles and stuck one of the pacifiers in my mouth. When she saw me, she told me I was all sorts of extra adorable and ruffled my hair. We sat down to play Mario Party 8 on the Wii. Although the CPU were being a bunch of jerks (I swear they were cheating), we were having a lot of fun. After a while, I needed to go, so I relaxed and wet my diaper. At that point, I nervously told her that I had “Done something new…”, to which she responded about how I was such a good little girl. That she was proud of me, and she started giving me kisses.

After a little makeout session, we decided to cuddle and watch some Netflix. While she held me in her arms, I drank from my bottle and enjoyed watching Supernatural. :) After we had our cuddle time, we decided to go to bed. I was waiting for her to come to bed, and when she did, she brought me my pacifier. I started happily sucking on it, and we started talking again. This time we talked about ways I could be her babygirl including being fed or changed. We also talked a bit more about me going to diapers 24/7. She told me she really liked the idea and supported. She even liked the idea of me becoming dependent on my diapers.

At this point, I know she’d like to explore more ways that I can be her baby girl, she wants to see my “diaper training” progress towards diaper dependence, she wants to take care of me, feed me, and change my diapers. For me, I’m happy I found someone so awesome and open minded, and hope that we continue to enjoy our time together, have many adventures together, and grow in wonderous ways. <3

An exciting update! <3

Published June 30, 2014 by diaperedgirl

All sort of things I want to tell you all about and ask you in this post! First of all… my lady friend and I are officially dating as of last Thursday! It’s been a long time since I’ve been in a relationship, so I’m nervous, but super excited! She and I have been talking about all sorts of things including planning a camping trip sometime, or even something as simple as cuddling up while watching a movie. She bought me flowers this weekend, which was very sweet of her. <3 Though something I’m sure you all have been wondering about is the whole diaper thing with me dating her. Well I will be having another post later this week to update you on that. She and I have been chatting about it, about what I’ve seen online, what people have suggested to me. Everything from wearing diapers for comfort, to actively becoming incontinent, or even being babied. I know she is a bit of a dominant herself, liking to be in control, and she seems to like a submissive me, but she wants to talk about this in more detail on Tuesday. On top of our chat on Tuesday, I’ll be trying one of my sample diapers that I got with her around. She wants to know how I look in them, what it feels like to grab my butt, etc, hee hee.

Something else I thought you all might find interesting is the current condition of my bladder control. As you all know, for the most part I’ve been out of diapers. Only in them on rare occasions. While on my trip to Vegas, we were out partying late, sometimes didn’t get all that much sleep. One night (well technically morning :P ), I woke up in the early hours only to realize I was wetting myself! Keep in mind I haven’t wet in my sleep in months upon months. Once I realized what was happening, I stopped. Luckily I hadn’t wet too much, that and since it was a hotel, they cleaned the sheets and everything while we were gone! Makes you wonder how quickly things will regress when I return to full-time diapers…

Speaking of returning to full-time diapers, I’d like to give you an update on the plan for that. :) Since the suggestion was for me to wear diapers from Fall through Winter, I figured I’d go by the astronomical calendar. According to that then, I will start wearing diapers 24/7 again on September 23 and stay in them through March 20, approximately 6 months. During that time, I will be in diapers full-time, no exceptions. The goal for this one is to end up losing control at night. To do that I want to wear some of the thicker/more absorbent diapers so I can feel confident in my diapers.

I’ve had a few suggestions as to how to help make this happen, and I would love to hear what all of you think of the ideas, or if you have any of your own. One this was to make sure I’m drinking lots of liquids to ensure wetting myself a lot and to make sure I drink cranberry juice before bed. Another suggestion was to find a hypnosis file I like and start using it on a regular occasion. Last, but not least, I had someone suggest I start a diaper diary. Start keeping track of how noticeable it is when I wet myself, when I need to change myself, and also keeping track of if I go in my sleep or not. That way I would have written records of my progress towards diaper dependence.

If there is anything you’d like to see/hear about on here, let me know!

Love you all and hope you’re having a wonderful summer!

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