Hey there everyone! I hope you are all doing well. I know things have been busy and crazy on my end, and I hope to catch you up with this post :) Recently I went on a backpacking trip to Colorado. It was absolutely fun, though I have to say, might not be able to do that so well once I’m in diapers full-time. Just the issue of carrying all the diapers used and not in and out of the park. I went on this trip over labor day weekend with a good friend of mine and my girlfriend. While we had fun in general, the trip showed some flaws/issues my girlfriend and I have in our relationship. It really made me question whether we should be together or not.
We ended up getting together at the beginning of last weekend to talk about it all. It was a long conversation, and not a fun one, but I think it was one we both needed. While you can never know for sure how a relationship will turn out, we’ve decided to give things a little longer before any big decisions are made, so we shall see how that goes. In the mean time, we’re going to do our best to enjoy our time together, and communicate the best we can.
Now I’m sure many of you are excited for me to get back to diapers, and rightly so, after all it starts very soon…. only 12 more days! It would seem it is probably a good idea I get back in to diapers soon with an experience I had recently. Last week, a friend of mine was celebrating her birthday, so after work I joined her at a bar she wanted to go to. I definitely had a lot of fun, and a few drinks. Had to use the bathroom a couple times which was fine, until I had to go at the end, right when they told everyone they needed to leave. On top of that, another person needed a ride home, so here I was needing to pee and giving someone a ride home too. I ended up getting them home just fine, and got back to my place, or at least the parking lot… As it was I ended up losing control after I got out of my car. I didn’t expect anything like this at my age, at least not until diaper training had been underway, but I wet my pants right there in the parking lot… I’m just glad it was late at night and I was alone. I was sooooo embarassed. Due to that happening, you can see why I’d be thinking it’s good I’m getting ready to be back in diapers full-time.
I did get my order in for my first case of diapers, which did arrive yesterday. For those that are wondering, I did decide to go with Absorbency Plus, Level 4 diapers as my diaper of choice. (http://www.xpmedical.com/absorbency_plus.html) At this time I will be wearing just these ones, day and night. I’m hoping it will work out rather well without being too hard to hide. :) I am still in the preparation stages for this though, and will be ordering a mattress cover soon so I don’t have to worry about night time leaks.
At this time the original plan is to stay in diapers for 6 months while trying to make myself completely bladder incontinent. I will be attempting that by making sure I drink lots of liquids day and night to help practice keeping my bladder relaxed, while staying in extra absorbent diapers to ensure my confidence in my diapers. I am still looking at hypnosis to help aid in becoming incontinent, but don’t have anything picked up/figured out for certain. After talking to my girlfriend about this previously, she did mention liking the idea of my staying in diapers beyond the 6 months. At one point she said “If you end up enjoying it, why stop?”, so she seems to like the idea of me remaining in diapers.
Now that also depends on a few things. If we end up breaking up, then I’m not sure I will continue with this, or at least not beyond the 6 or so months. Part of the reason I decided to do it (not the entire reason, just part), was that she liked the idea of me going back to diapers. Another thing is that while doing my best to save up money while still having a little fun, money may be tight. If it comes down to it, I may need to stop if finances do become an issue. That being said, we can hope for the best, and I hope to have you all with me on this journey to diaper dependence.
Have a great day, and stay awesome! <3