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A wee bit curious

Published August 13, 2014 by diaperedgirl

As we get closer and closer to my starting time to be back in diapers 24/7 and to start my diaper training, I’ve been thinking a lot about it. Obviously I’ll be in diapers all the time, with the intent of becoming bladder incontinent, just like my girlfriend wants. I’ve been wondering how long it’ll go for though. I know on one hand I shouldn’t worry about it, and it would be better to just let things happen, but I do wonder… I’m curious what you think though.

  • How long do you think I’ll be in diapers?
  • How long do you think it’ll be until I am wetting the bed every night?
  • How long until I need diapers during the day?
  • How long do you think I should remain incontinent?
  • If/when I attempt pottytraining again, how long do you think it will take?
  • Do you think there is a risk of becoming stuck in diapers?

I hope to come up with other interesting things to write about soon. Also, I am looking to order my first case of diapers to start up my supply soon. :)

Wow…. that was unexpected…

Published July 6, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Last I posted, I told you how my girlfriend and I were going to talk about me trying diapers, and get her thoughts on me in them. Since then we’ve hung out a few times, and I’ve learned quite a few things about her. :)

I was nervous about being in diaper in front her so the first thing I did after getting home was take a nice relaxing bath. After that, I put a diaper on (one of the Absorbency Plus diapers) along with some sleeping shorts and a shirt. I was nervous to say the least about my girlfriend coming over and seeing me like that. When she arrived and I answered the door, she didn’t say anything about, but I suppose she couldn’t see my diapers. She could definitely HEAR them though. For most of the early part of the evening, everything went like normal, we watched a movie, cuddled, and she did grope my butt, though she didn’t say anything about it yet.

After the movie was over, we started to talk more about it. She told me how she liked the submissive aspect of me being in diapers, and even potentially using them. She seemed to be ok with me being in them, so I figured I needed to ask her something. I went ahead and asked if she wanted to see me in diaper, to which she responded yes. Nervously, I went ahead and removed my shorts, exposing my crinkly (yet dry) diaper. She immediately told me I looked all cute, sexy, and adorable. At that moment, I was really happy, thinking “Maybe she would even kind of like me staying in diapers”.

As the night went on, we kept talking about it. She told me she liked it for a few reasons, one being that if I was wearing diapers/being a baby, she would get to take care of “her little girl”. She liked how extra cuddly I was that night as well. We continued to talk about the idea/plan for me to be in diapers from the beginning of Fall to the end of Winter, and she definitely seemed on board with that idea. We also spoke briefly about titles, dom/sub, big/little, mommy/baby girl. Since she had already started calling me “baby girl”, I went ahead and called her “mommy” to which she started to give me more kisses and cuddling. :) I ended up falling asleep snuggled up to her while sucking on my thumb that night.

That’s not the end of this post though! In the following days, we talked a bit more about me being in diapers, actually using my diapers, her being my mommy, etc. We decided that next time we hung out, I’d be in a diaper again, and try using them, with her there with me, to be supportive. We were also going to try a few other things.

That night, when she came over, I was already in my diaper, but this time in jeans and a t-shirt. When she came in, she asked made comments about me being “her cute baby girl”. After telling her I was diapered already and a quick inspection, it was determined that my diaper wasn’t visible under my jeans. With that confirmed we headed back out the door to the store. We had decided if we were going to try the whole idea of me being her “baby girl”, perhaps we needed to try a few other things with it.

At the store, we immediately headed to the baby section. Once we were there, we started looking at different baby bottles and pacifiers. We ended up deciding on some pacifiers with cute kitties on them, and a 3-pack of bottles. One has giraffes :) After deciding which ones to get, we made our purchase and headed back to my place.

After getting back, I filled up one of the bottles and stuck one of the pacifiers in my mouth. When she saw me, she told me I was all sorts of extra adorable and ruffled my hair. We sat down to play Mario Party 8 on the Wii. Although the CPU were being a bunch of jerks (I swear they were cheating), we were having a lot of fun. After a while, I needed to go, so I relaxed and wet my diaper. At that point, I nervously told her that I had “Done something new…”, to which she responded about how I was such a good little girl. That she was proud of me, and she started giving me kisses.

After a little makeout session, we decided to cuddle and watch some Netflix. While she held me in her arms, I drank from my bottle and enjoyed watching Supernatural. :) After we had our cuddle time, we decided to go to bed. I was waiting for her to come to bed, and when she did, she brought me my pacifier. I started happily sucking on it, and we started talking again. This time we talked about ways I could be her babygirl including being fed or changed. We also talked a bit more about me going to diapers 24/7. She told me she really liked the idea and supported. She even liked the idea of me becoming dependent on my diapers.

At this point, I know she’d like to explore more ways that I can be her baby girl, she wants to see my “diaper training” progress towards diaper dependence, she wants to take care of me, feed me, and change my diapers. For me, I’m happy I found someone so awesome and open minded, and hope that we continue to enjoy our time together, have many adventures together, and grow in wonderous ways. <3

An exciting update! <3

Published June 30, 2014 by diaperedgirl

All sort of things I want to tell you all about and ask you in this post! First of all… my lady friend and I are officially dating as of last Thursday! It’s been a long time since I’ve been in a relationship, so I’m nervous, but super excited! She and I have been talking about all sorts of things including planning a camping trip sometime, or even something as simple as cuddling up while watching a movie. She bought me flowers this weekend, which was very sweet of her. <3 Though something I’m sure you all have been wondering about is the whole diaper thing with me dating her. Well I will be having another post later this week to update you on that. She and I have been chatting about it, about what I’ve seen online, what people have suggested to me. Everything from wearing diapers for comfort, to actively becoming incontinent, or even being babied. I know she is a bit of a dominant herself, liking to be in control, and she seems to like a submissive me, but she wants to talk about this in more detail on Tuesday. On top of our chat on Tuesday, I’ll be trying one of my sample diapers that I got with her around. She wants to know how I look in them, what it feels like to grab my butt, etc, hee hee.

Something else I thought you all might find interesting is the current condition of my bladder control. As you all know, for the most part I’ve been out of diapers. Only in them on rare occasions. While on my trip to Vegas, we were out partying late, sometimes didn’t get all that much sleep. One night (well technically morning :P ), I woke up in the early hours only to realize I was wetting myself! Keep in mind I haven’t wet in my sleep in months upon months. Once I realized what was happening, I stopped. Luckily I hadn’t wet too much, that and since it was a hotel, they cleaned the sheets and everything while we were gone! Makes you wonder how quickly things will regress when I return to full-time diapers…

Speaking of returning to full-time diapers, I’d like to give you an update on the plan for that. :) Since the suggestion was for me to wear diapers from Fall through Winter, I figured I’d go by the astronomical calendar. According to that then, I will start wearing diapers 24/7 again on September 23 and stay in them through March 20, approximately 6 months. During that time, I will be in diapers full-time, no exceptions. The goal for this one is to end up losing control at night. To do that I want to wear some of the thicker/more absorbent diapers so I can feel confident in my diapers.

I’ve had a few suggestions as to how to help make this happen, and I would love to hear what all of you think of the ideas, or if you have any of your own. One this was to make sure I’m drinking lots of liquids to ensure wetting myself a lot and to make sure I drink cranberry juice before bed. Another suggestion was to find a hypnosis file I like and start using it on a regular occasion. Last, but not least, I had someone suggest I start a diaper diary. Start keeping track of how noticeable it is when I wet myself, when I need to change myself, and also keeping track of if I go in my sleep or not. That way I would have written records of my progress towards diaper dependence.

If there is anything you’d like to see/hear about on here, let me know!

Love you all and hope you’re having a wonderful summer!

Trying the 24/7… and more newness

Published June 26, 2014 by diaperedgirl

It has been a while with getting ready for my trip this summer… I know it can be frustrating when I don’t post when I say I will, but I can’t stop the internet from going out on me unfortunately, but I do have quite a bit to tell all of you about. I did get a chance to try one of the Dry 24/7’s I got in my sample pack finally! After chatting with a few of you, I decided to try the Dry 24/7 with 2 thinner diapers as boosters. Even dry all that was very bulky, haha. To make sure I was able to use the diapers to their fullest, I started drinking a lot of water. Throughout the night, I drank around 120oz of water, but I think that may of been my undoing.

First of all the Dry 24/7 was very comfy, though a little noisy, but not terribly so. While very bulky with the 2 extra diapers in there, I think with the right outfits, I could get away with a Dry 24/7 on its own. As the night went on, I continued to wet my diapers at a quick rate. In the first few hours, it was absorbed up all nice and wonderfully. No leaks or anything, but it really started to bulk up a bit. By the time I went to bed that night, I was very wet, but it still wasn’t showing through on the Dry 24/7, but seemed to be getting a little wet around the leg holes. I decided to put on a pair of plastic pants just to ensure I wouldn’t leak in the night and went to bed. I ended up sleep well…. for a while, but woke up in the middle of the night. Like normal, I just let it go and tried to go back to sleep… but that’s when I noticed the bed was getting wet. It seemed I had oversoaked my diapers, but when I looked at them in the light, the front/back of the Dry 24/7 weren’t even soaked.

My guess is that the inner diapers didn’t distribute the wetness to the Dry 24/7 properly, causing the leak. Just means I need to try again, but with just the Dry 24/7, we shall see how that one goes. I haven’t had much time to really try out the other yet, but I will soon, and I’ll let you all know how those ones work for me. If you have any others you think I should try I’d love to know. I’m also looking at some cloth diapers from a website that was suggested to me. They are a bit pricey $35-40 a piece, so I want to make sure I get the right ones if I do. My biggest problem though, is there are so many different designs! Which ones do you think would be cutest?

http://www.dependeco-adult-diapers.com/catalog.php?all=yes

Aside from diaper adventures, I recently got back from Las Vegas. I went to the Electric Daisy Carnival, and even though it was at night, there is no way I could’ve gone to that diapered. Way too hot! It was a wonderful time filled with dancing, good food, great music, and new/fun people. :) I was in Vegas for 5 days, and hope to be able to go back someday.

Even more exciting though, I met a pretty lady through Facebook recently. A few weeks back we decided to hang out, and we hit it off. Since then we’ve hung out a few times, and even spent the day together after I got back from Vegas. She is pretty cool and is open about a lot of things. A lot of time we just ask each other questions back and forth or talk about adventures. One such thing that I had mentioned to her, was that I had suggested to me for an adventure was to wear diapers 24/7 from Fall through Winter coming up, to which she responded that if I was curious she thought I should go ahead an try it. She thought it sounded interesting and it would allow her to test her theory that I would look cute/sexy no matter what I wore. XD Apparently tt is possible to find people who are ok with diapers. At least it seems like it so far, but we shall see how it goes when it happens.

<3 <3 <3

Beginning Anew

Published May 25, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Throughout this whole experience, I’ve met a lot of people, even made some wonderful friends. Recently I’ve been talking to one such lady who has been telling me about her life in diapers. One thing she had been talking a lot about, was that while in the summer diapers weren’t as nice, she was always thankful for diapers in the winter. Not only did she have more trouble holding it in the winter, but it made it easier not having to worry about the bathroom. Something that started out as a need for became something she enjoyed over time.

Through our conversations, we talked about how diapers are something that can be wonderful to have, especially when you’re busy and/or stressed. How it is something that is easier to deal with once you accept you’re in diapers. From our talks recently, we thought it might be a good idea for me to return to diapers. Though during the summer that would be very difficult with the hot weather, swimming, festivals, etc. With that in mind, we came up with an idea.

The idea that when the weather starts to cool down, when we are moving along through fall, that I will go back to diapers. I would go back to diapers 24/7. Something different though would be that the types and thickness of diapers I would wear would not vary. I would be in the most absorbent diapers I can find (while still remaining affordable). This would be all the time, regardless of situation. To make this workable, planning needs to be done. I will need to save up money to make sure I have enough diapers.I will need to test diapers to see what would be best for me. I need to rework my fall/winter wardrobe so I can properly accommodate thicker diapers.

The reason I would be in these more absorbent diapers, would be because the plan would be to drink lots of liquids each and every day, including cranberry juice (a natural diuretic) to encourage an almost constant flow of pee, to get me more used to peeing without holding it at all. The more I go, the quicker my body gets used to never holding it in. Her thought would be that if I stuck to this, by the end of this coming winter, I would need to be in diapers both during the day and during the night.

Now this plan, like I said before, requires a lot of preparation, time, and commitment. At this point, I recently ordered a few sample packs to try a few out, including: AbriForm Premium, Dry 24/7, AbsorbancyPlus. Any advice or encouragement from any of you would be greatly appreciated. :) If all goes well, I’ll be returning to diapers 24/7 once again!

Roller Coaster of Life

Published March 19, 2014 by diaperedgirl

      We all have our own adventures, our own ups and downs in all aspects of my life. Sometimes our lives are filled with more adventure than others. Some days we hope and dream for more adventures, while other days we wish to take a step back, to take a chance to breathe.

      Lately it’s been crazy with all the work and adventures. Trying to move up at work, trying to set up dates with a cute lady, planning for trips, figuring out where I’m going in life, and so much more! I was hoping upon hoping that I had finally found someone special, but it would seem it was not meant to be. We had a lovely date, going out to eat at a Thai restaurant. We both had said we had a good time, but over time we were speaking less and less. More recently she told me she wanted to stay friends… but she had found someone else. For a while I felt rather down, but then I realized, I’ve been through this before, it’s nothing new. Besides, if she is not the one, then I just need to keep looking, to find someone better!

      To that regard, I know many of you would like to see me find someone who likes me in diapers, so I figure I’ll give it a shot. If you know good dating sites that a young lesbian could find a girlfriend who wants her staying in diapers, then let me know, and I’ll give it a shot! Now I don’t have the time to create/manage scores of online dating profiles, so make sure you’re giving me my best options. ;)

      Lately I visited Chicago again, this time over the St. Patrick’s Day weekend. It was a blast! I got to see friends, see new sites, make new friends, and go on many adventures. I got to stay with a friend which made the trip MUCH cheaper. I spent a lot of time with said friend, and we went from friends, to great friends I think ^_^

      I’m still holding the pattern that every time I visit my friends in Chicago, I leave after making more friends. I may of even found a potential roommate if I can find a job in Chicago. :) One interesting thing though was the trip back. Since I was traveling over night, I slept on the way. My sleep was intermittent throughout the travel, but later into the night, I fell into a deeper sleep, where I had a few dreams. A few were non-sensical like many dreams, but one stood out.

     In this dream someone (no idea who it was), was telling me that I needed “baby training”. I was confused as to what that was going to entail, or why I needed this. Almost instantly though, I found myself in thick diapers, with a pacifier in my mouth. I don’t recall if I used my diaper in the dream or if anything else happened, but that part stuck with me after waking up. I decided then, after I got home to put a diaper on again.

      Here I am then, sitting in a recently wet diapers, writing this new post. I’m just trying to figure out where to go from here. On one hand, I could just do as I have been, putting on a diaper if I really feel the urge to, or I could try to make them more of a part of my day-to-day life again. I’m not to sure. What I can say though is this, I have loved being able to have a place to blog my thoughts and adventures, and I have greatly missed all of your feedback. Anything you want to say in response to this, I’d be happy to see, whether it be comments, suggestions, or even questions, have at it, and have a good day! <3

Life Continues

Published February 23, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Good morning everyone, I hope you’ve been having a nice weekend. I had that date the other weekend and it went really well. We met up at a Thai restaurant, and had a wonderful meal. Though we had talked a lot online before, it was a welcome change of pace to get a chance to talk to each other in person. :) We both even got to try some new dishes we hadn’t had before. Though we didn’t get to spend a lot of time together that day, we both had a good time, or so she tells me. :P She did however say she would like to get together again soon, so here is to hoping!

Now on this date I wasn’t diapered or anything, as you know I haven’t been in them much. I have been in them on occasion at night but not much during the day. Last night was one of those occasions. I figured since I had drank heavily with a friend, it would probably be better for me to be in a thick diaper for when I would eventually need to pee. As I guessed I even had to go before I fell asleep, so for the first time in a little while I went to bed in a wet diaper. I ended up waking up in the middle of the night even, where I wet myself again before drifting back to sleep.

This morning, I was laying in bed just kind of thinking before I got up. Here I am laying in bed in a thick diaper, a thick wet diaper. At 25 years old I am laying in a bed wearing diapers that I don’t need but yet I put it on before going to sleep and almost immediately wet myself. I’m a 25 year old woman, and most women my age are thinking they want to be sexy, or perhaps cute, which I want too, but here I am… in diapers. I wasn’t ashamed though, I wasn’t sad I’m in diapers, it felt normal. It felt nice to have that nice padding wrapped around me, for a chance not worrying about the potty.

This morning, I am going to stay in this diaper, and I think for today at least, I am going to go to work diapered as well. We shall see how this goes.

Tata everyone! <3

Self-reflection

Published February 14, 2014 by diaperedgirl

First of all, I want to say thank you to all my supporters, from the light readers to the avid followers. I appreciate all of you. Without you. this blog would have flickered out of existence long ago. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. I know there has been the talk of me returning to diapers full-time at the support of all of you. I have been thinking about it. What it was like in diapers 24/7, what was good, what was bad. How used to it I got in terms of wetting without thinking and of just keeping my diapers hidden. I’ve tried to look at it from all angles. Just thinking about why I found comfort in diapers when I did. Thinking about when I wished I could’ve been in panties. From all these thoughts, I’ve come to a decision.

At this time, I don’t think I’d be happy returning to diapers 24/7 with no forseeable end in sight. At the same time, I wanted to make you all aware of that, so those of you who want to buy me diapers to make sure I stay in them know what’s going on. Now if anyone still wants to buy me diapers or send me funds to buy diapers or something else, I’ll gladly accept them. If you or anyone else is still wanting to buy me diapers, I’d be happy to talk with you either in the comments, or on my yahoo. (agirlandherdiapers@yahoo.com) about that.

I had come to this decision a while ago, but work has kept me very busy. Know how I’m feeling about in regards to returning to diapers permanently, I’d love some feedback from you. In other news, and I can assure you that this news had no effect on the decision to be in diapers or not, I have a date this weekend. I’ve been trying various dating websites and I have been chatting with a beautiful woman who I seem to have a lot in common. I’ll keep you all updated on that as things progress. :)

Thank you again everyone, and just remember, though I may not respond right away, I will do my best to get back to you whether that is in the comments or on Yahoo messenger. :)

Thank You <3

Published December 11, 2013 by diaperedgirl

To every one of my readers, I want to extend a heartfelt thank you. For your encouragement while I tried staying in diapers, for giving me ideas, for supporting me, and even to you the silent supporters who read through my blogs each and every time I posted.

I know I haven’t been on or  posting much at all lately, with the holiday seasons among other things, it has been quite hectic here. I know I had said I wanted to post more often, but yet I haven’t and that hasn’t been fair to you. I figured at the very least, I owe all of you an update on everything. :) I had a surprisingly nice Thanksgiving with my extended family, no one got too drunk, which made for a nice time together.

With that behind us and Christmas fast approaching, I’m preparing for that as well. It always seems that when it rains it pours, and  that is no different when it comes to expenses as well. Lately I have had some various financial issues arise. Due to this, I don’t really have the extra funds to purchase/stay in diapers. As such my time in diapers does seem to be coming to an end. Don’t fret though, I still have some left, so I will be in them from time to time, but for now at least, diapers and I will be parting ways.

I hope you all have enjoyed my posts and this adventure that you have gone on with me. I never thought I’d say it, but I have had a lot of fun. I was able to try something completely different, and to be more of the silly weirdo I know I am. :) To all of you who are curious about trying something, whether that be staying in diapers like me or something completely different, to you I tell you this. Try it, try everything! You never know how things will go, what you will like, or what lasting memories will be created. Worst case scenario, you don’t like something new and you don’t do it again. Then you try something else!

If any of you want to chat about anything, I’ll try to be on my yahoo messenger at agirlandherdiapers@yahoo.com or you can always e-mail me. I think we can all use more friends. <3

Have a safe and happy holidays!

The tough decision

Published October 20, 2013 by diaperedgirl

As many of you know, I was in diapers for quite a while, and have more recently been trying to wean myself off of them as I run out. That in itself has been an adventure.

When I started with diapers, they felt strange to wear, and even more so to use them. But over time I grew used to them, and began wetting myself with ease. By the end I had occasionally gone in my sleep and was regularly wetting myself without realizing it during the day. Diapers stopped being that weird thing I had to wear and became a comfort. It felt nice to have that extra padding, to not have to worry about the bathroom other than for changing.

As time went on I even got more comfortable wearing my diapers with whichever outfits, though there are some that I stayed away from, some of my tinier skirts and dresses or really tight shorts and jeans. I did feel cute in my diapers, especially the Bambino Bellissimo diapers I had for a while, but it was a challenge to feel sexy, I couldn’t wear sexy or cute panties, just diapers 24/7. Which is better?

Now though, many months forward from that, I have about one and a half cases of diapers left, so I’m starting to go back to panties. In the past week though I’ve had accidents in my sleep so I’ve gone back to diapers at night, and I’m still sometimes in them during the day. Many people that I have talked to online think I should stay in diapers whether because it’s cute, or sexy, because they love this blog, or because I’m already having accidents.

I could just try staying in diapers, though I imagine accidents will continue to get worse with that. There is also the cost, the person I originally bought diapers from for this whole thing has gone and disappeared on me, so without a cheap supply of diapers, I’m not sure if it could continue or not.

I know I’m still curious about some things, especially after this whole experience. If I could be in diapers without a definite stop date. That and the whole unpottytraining idea that people mentioned on a few occasions.

I guess that comes to a couple questions then. Do I stay in diapers? If so, how do I afford them?

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