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Very soon!

Published September 11, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Hey there everyone! I hope you are all doing well. I know things have been busy and crazy on my end, and I hope to catch you up with this post :) Recently I went on a backpacking trip to Colorado. It was absolutely fun, though I have to say, might not be able to do that so well once I’m in diapers full-time. Just the issue of carrying all the diapers used and not in and out of the park. I went on this trip over labor day weekend with a good friend of mine and my girlfriend. While we had fun in general, the trip showed some flaws/issues my girlfriend and I have in our relationship. It really made me question whether we should be together or not.

We ended up getting together at the beginning of last weekend to talk about it all. It was a long conversation, and not a fun one, but I think it was one we both needed. While you can never know for sure how a relationship will turn out, we’ve decided to give things a little longer before any big decisions are made, so we shall see how that goes. In the mean time, we’re going to do our best to enjoy our time together, and communicate the best we can.

Now I’m sure many of you are excited for me to get back to diapers, and rightly so, after all it starts very soon…. only 12 more days! It would seem it is probably a good idea I get back in to diapers soon with an experience I had recently. Last week, a friend of mine was celebrating her birthday, so after work I joined her at a bar she wanted to go to. I definitely had a lot of fun, and a few drinks. Had to use the bathroom a couple times which was fine, until I had to go at the end, right when they told everyone they needed to leave. On top of that, another person needed a ride home, so here I was needing to pee and giving someone a ride home too. I ended up getting them home just fine, and got back to my place, or at least the parking lot… As it was I ended up losing control after I got out of my car. I didn’t expect anything like this at my age, at least not until diaper training had been underway, but I wet my pants right there in the parking lot… I’m just glad it was late at night and I was alone. I was sooooo embarassed. Due to that happening, you can see why I’d be thinking it’s good I’m getting ready to be back in diapers full-time.

I did get my order in for my first case of diapers, which did arrive yesterday. For those that are wondering, I did decide to go with Absorbency Plus, Level 4 diapers as my diaper of choice. ( At this time I will be wearing just these ones, day and night. I’m hoping it will work out rather well without being too hard to hide. :) I am still in the preparation stages for this though, and will be ordering a mattress cover soon so I don’t have to worry about night time leaks.

At this time the original plan is to stay in diapers for 6 months while trying to make myself completely bladder incontinent. I will be attempting that by making sure I drink lots of liquids day and night to help practice keeping my bladder relaxed, while staying in extra absorbent diapers to ensure my confidence in my diapers. I am still looking at hypnosis to help aid in becoming incontinent, but don’t have anything picked up/figured out for certain. After talking to my girlfriend about this previously, she did mention liking the idea of my staying in diapers beyond the 6 months. At one point she said “If you end up enjoying it, why stop?”, so she seems to like the idea of me remaining in diapers.

Now that also depends on a few things. If we end up breaking up, then I’m not sure I will continue with this, or at least not beyond the 6 or so months. Part of the reason I decided to do it (not the entire reason, just part), was that she liked the idea of me going back to diapers. Another thing is that while doing my best to save up money while still having a little fun, money may be tight. If it comes down to it, I may need to stop if finances do become an issue. That being said, we can hope for the best, and I hope to have you all with me on this journey to diaper dependence.

Have a great day, and stay awesome! <3

A wee bit curious

Published August 13, 2014 by diaperedgirl

As we get closer and closer to my starting time to be back in diapers 24/7 and to start my diaper training, I’ve been thinking a lot about it. Obviously I’ll be in diapers all the time, with the intent of becoming bladder incontinent, just like my girlfriend wants. I’ve been wondering how long it’ll go for though. I know on one hand I shouldn’t worry about it, and it would be better to just let things happen, but I do wonder… I’m curious what you think though.

  • How long do you think I’ll be in diapers?
  • How long do you think it’ll be until I am wetting the bed every night?
  • How long until I need diapers during the day?
  • How long do you think I should remain incontinent?
  • If/when I attempt pottytraining again, how long do you think it will take?
  • Do you think there is a risk of becoming stuck in diapers?

I hope to come up with other interesting things to write about soon. Also, I am looking to order my first case of diapers to start up my supply soon. :)

Wow…. that was unexpected…

Published July 6, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Last I posted, I told you how my girlfriend and I were going to talk about me trying diapers, and get her thoughts on me in them. Since then we’ve hung out a few times, and I’ve learned quite a few things about her. :)

I was nervous about being in diaper in front her so the first thing I did after getting home was take a nice relaxing bath. After that, I put a diaper on (one of the Absorbency Plus diapers) along with some sleeping shorts and a shirt. I was nervous to say the least about my girlfriend coming over and seeing me like that. When she arrived and I answered the door, she didn’t say anything about, but I suppose she couldn’t see my diapers. She could definitely HEAR them though. For most of the early part of the evening, everything went like normal, we watched a movie, cuddled, and she did grope my butt, though she didn’t say anything about it yet.

After the movie was over, we started to talk more about it. She told me how she liked the submissive aspect of me being in diapers, and even potentially using them. She seemed to be ok with me being in them, so I figured I needed to ask her something. I went ahead and asked if she wanted to see me in diaper, to which she responded yes. Nervously, I went ahead and removed my shorts, exposing my crinkly (yet dry) diaper. She immediately told me I looked all cute, sexy, and adorable. At that moment, I was really happy, thinking “Maybe she would even kind of like me staying in diapers”.

As the night went on, we kept talking about it. She told me she liked it for a few reasons, one being that if I was wearing diapers/being a baby, she would get to take care of “her little girl”. She liked how extra cuddly I was that night as well. We continued to talk about the idea/plan for me to be in diapers from the beginning of Fall to the end of Winter, and she definitely seemed on board with that idea. We also spoke briefly about titles, dom/sub, big/little, mommy/baby girl. Since she had already started calling me “baby girl”, I went ahead and called her “mommy” to which she started to give me more kisses and cuddling. :) I ended up falling asleep snuggled up to her while sucking on my thumb that night.

That’s not the end of this post though! In the following days, we talked a bit more about me being in diapers, actually using my diapers, her being my mommy, etc. We decided that next time we hung out, I’d be in a diaper again, and try using them, with her there with me, to be supportive. We were also going to try a few other things.

That night, when she came over, I was already in my diaper, but this time in jeans and a t-shirt. When she came in, she asked made comments about me being “her cute baby girl”. After telling her I was diapered already and a quick inspection, it was determined that my diaper wasn’t visible under my jeans. With that confirmed we headed back out the door to the store. We had decided if we were going to try the whole idea of me being her “baby girl”, perhaps we needed to try a few other things with it.

At the store, we immediately headed to the baby section. Once we were there, we started looking at different baby bottles and pacifiers. We ended up deciding on some pacifiers with cute kitties on them, and a 3-pack of bottles. One has giraffes :) After deciding which ones to get, we made our purchase and headed back to my place.

After getting back, I filled up one of the bottles and stuck one of the pacifiers in my mouth. When she saw me, she told me I was all sorts of extra adorable and ruffled my hair. We sat down to play Mario Party 8 on the Wii. Although the CPU were being a bunch of jerks (I swear they were cheating), we were having a lot of fun. After a while, I needed to go, so I relaxed and wet my diaper. At that point, I nervously told her that I had “Done something new…”, to which she responded about how I was such a good little girl. That she was proud of me, and she started giving me kisses.

After a little makeout session, we decided to cuddle and watch some Netflix. While she held me in her arms, I drank from my bottle and enjoyed watching Supernatural. :) After we had our cuddle time, we decided to go to bed. I was waiting for her to come to bed, and when she did, she brought me my pacifier. I started happily sucking on it, and we started talking again. This time we talked about ways I could be her babygirl including being fed or changed. We also talked a bit more about me going to diapers 24/7. She told me she really liked the idea and supported. She even liked the idea of me becoming dependent on my diapers.

At this point, I know she’d like to explore more ways that I can be her baby girl, she wants to see my “diaper training” progress towards diaper dependence, she wants to take care of me, feed me, and change my diapers. For me, I’m happy I found someone so awesome and open minded, and hope that we continue to enjoy our time together, have many adventures together, and grow in wonderous ways. <3

An exciting update! <3

Published June 30, 2014 by diaperedgirl

All sort of things I want to tell you all about and ask you in this post! First of all… my lady friend and I are officially dating as of last Thursday! It’s been a long time since I’ve been in a relationship, so I’m nervous, but super excited! She and I have been talking about all sorts of things including planning a camping trip sometime, or even something as simple as cuddling up while watching a movie. She bought me flowers this weekend, which was very sweet of her. <3 Though something I’m sure you all have been wondering about is the whole diaper thing with me dating her. Well I will be having another post later this week to update you on that. She and I have been chatting about it, about what I’ve seen online, what people have suggested to me. Everything from wearing diapers for comfort, to actively becoming incontinent, or even being babied. I know she is a bit of a dominant herself, liking to be in control, and she seems to like a submissive me, but she wants to talk about this in more detail on Tuesday. On top of our chat on Tuesday, I’ll be trying one of my sample diapers that I got with her around. She wants to know how I look in them, what it feels like to grab my butt, etc, hee hee.

Something else I thought you all might find interesting is the current condition of my bladder control. As you all know, for the most part I’ve been out of diapers. Only in them on rare occasions. While on my trip to Vegas, we were out partying late, sometimes didn’t get all that much sleep. One night (well technically morning :P ), I woke up in the early hours only to realize I was wetting myself! Keep in mind I haven’t wet in my sleep in months upon months. Once I realized what was happening, I stopped. Luckily I hadn’t wet too much, that and since it was a hotel, they cleaned the sheets and everything while we were gone! Makes you wonder how quickly things will regress when I return to full-time diapers…

Speaking of returning to full-time diapers, I’d like to give you an update on the plan for that. :) Since the suggestion was for me to wear diapers from Fall through Winter, I figured I’d go by the astronomical calendar. According to that then, I will start wearing diapers 24/7 again on September 23 and stay in them through March 20, approximately 6 months. During that time, I will be in diapers full-time, no exceptions. The goal for this one is to end up losing control at night. To do that I want to wear some of the thicker/more absorbent diapers so I can feel confident in my diapers.

I’ve had a few suggestions as to how to help make this happen, and I would love to hear what all of you think of the ideas, or if you have any of your own. One this was to make sure I’m drinking lots of liquids to ensure wetting myself a lot and to make sure I drink cranberry juice before bed. Another suggestion was to find a hypnosis file I like and start using it on a regular occasion. Last, but not least, I had someone suggest I start a diaper diary. Start keeping track of how noticeable it is when I wet myself, when I need to change myself, and also keeping track of if I go in my sleep or not. That way I would have written records of my progress towards diaper dependence.

If there is anything you’d like to see/hear about on here, let me know!

Love you all and hope you’re having a wonderful summer!

Trying the 24/7… and more newness

Published June 26, 2014 by diaperedgirl

It has been a while with getting ready for my trip this summer… I know it can be frustrating when I don’t post when I say I will, but I can’t stop the internet from going out on me unfortunately, but I do have quite a bit to tell all of you about. I did get a chance to try one of the Dry 24/7’s I got in my sample pack finally! After chatting with a few of you, I decided to try the Dry 24/7 with 2 thinner diapers as boosters. Even dry all that was very bulky, haha. To make sure I was able to use the diapers to their fullest, I started drinking a lot of water. Throughout the night, I drank around 120oz of water, but I think that may of been my undoing.

First of all the Dry 24/7 was very comfy, though a little noisy, but not terribly so. While very bulky with the 2 extra diapers in there, I think with the right outfits, I could get away with a Dry 24/7 on its own. As the night went on, I continued to wet my diapers at a quick rate. In the first few hours, it was absorbed up all nice and wonderfully. No leaks or anything, but it really started to bulk up a bit. By the time I went to bed that night, I was very wet, but it still wasn’t showing through on the Dry 24/7, but seemed to be getting a little wet around the leg holes. I decided to put on a pair of plastic pants just to ensure I wouldn’t leak in the night and went to bed. I ended up sleep well…. for a while, but woke up in the middle of the night. Like normal, I just let it go and tried to go back to sleep… but that’s when I noticed the bed was getting wet. It seemed I had oversoaked my diapers, but when I looked at them in the light, the front/back of the Dry 24/7 weren’t even soaked.

My guess is that the inner diapers didn’t distribute the wetness to the Dry 24/7 properly, causing the leak. Just means I need to try again, but with just the Dry 24/7, we shall see how that one goes. I haven’t had much time to really try out the other yet, but I will soon, and I’ll let you all know how those ones work for me. If you have any others you think I should try I’d love to know. I’m also looking at some cloth diapers from a website that was suggested to me. They are a bit pricey $35-40 a piece, so I want to make sure I get the right ones if I do. My biggest problem though, is there are so many different designs! Which ones do you think would be cutest?

Aside from diaper adventures, I recently got back from Las Vegas. I went to the Electric Daisy Carnival, and even though it was at night, there is no way I could’ve gone to that diapered. Way too hot! It was a wonderful time filled with dancing, good food, great music, and new/fun people. :) I was in Vegas for 5 days, and hope to be able to go back someday.

Even more exciting though, I met a pretty lady through Facebook recently. A few weeks back we decided to hang out, and we hit it off. Since then we’ve hung out a few times, and even spent the day together after I got back from Vegas. She is pretty cool and is open about a lot of things. A lot of time we just ask each other questions back and forth or talk about adventures. One such thing that I had mentioned to her, was that I had suggested to me for an adventure was to wear diapers 24/7 from Fall through Winter coming up, to which she responded that if I was curious she thought I should go ahead an try it. She thought it sounded interesting and it would allow her to test her theory that I would look cute/sexy no matter what I wore. XD Apparently tt is possible to find people who are ok with diapers. At least it seems like it so far, but we shall see how it goes when it happens.

<3 <3 <3

Beginning Anew

Published May 25, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Throughout this whole experience, I’ve met a lot of people, even made some wonderful friends. Recently I’ve been talking to one such lady who has been telling me about her life in diapers. One thing she had been talking a lot about, was that while in the summer diapers weren’t as nice, she was always thankful for diapers in the winter. Not only did she have more trouble holding it in the winter, but it made it easier not having to worry about the bathroom. Something that started out as a need for became something she enjoyed over time.

Through our conversations, we talked about how diapers are something that can be wonderful to have, especially when you’re busy and/or stressed. How it is something that is easier to deal with once you accept you’re in diapers. From our talks recently, we thought it might be a good idea for me to return to diapers. Though during the summer that would be very difficult with the hot weather, swimming, festivals, etc. With that in mind, we came up with an idea.

The idea that when the weather starts to cool down, when we are moving along through fall, that I will go back to diapers. I would go back to diapers 24/7. Something different though would be that the types and thickness of diapers I would wear would not vary. I would be in the most absorbent diapers I can find (while still remaining affordable). This would be all the time, regardless of situation. To make this workable, planning needs to be done. I will need to save up money to make sure I have enough diapers.I will need to test diapers to see what would be best for me. I need to rework my fall/winter wardrobe so I can properly accommodate thicker diapers.

The reason I would be in these more absorbent diapers, would be because the plan would be to drink lots of liquids each and every day, including cranberry juice (a natural diuretic) to encourage an almost constant flow of pee, to get me more used to peeing without holding it at all. The more I go, the quicker my body gets used to never holding it in. Her thought would be that if I stuck to this, by the end of this coming winter, I would need to be in diapers both during the day and during the night.

Now this plan, like I said before, requires a lot of preparation, time, and commitment. At this point, I recently ordered a few sample packs to try a few out, including: AbriForm Premium, Dry 24/7, AbsorbancyPlus. Any advice or encouragement from any of you would be greatly appreciated. :) If all goes well, I’ll be returning to diapers 24/7 once again!

Roller Coaster of Life

Published March 19, 2014 by diaperedgirl

      We all have our own adventures, our own ups and downs in all aspects of my life. Sometimes our lives are filled with more adventure than others. Some days we hope and dream for more adventures, while other days we wish to take a step back, to take a chance to breathe.

      Lately it’s been crazy with all the work and adventures. Trying to move up at work, trying to set up dates with a cute lady, planning for trips, figuring out where I’m going in life, and so much more! I was hoping upon hoping that I had finally found someone special, but it would seem it was not meant to be. We had a lovely date, going out to eat at a Thai restaurant. We both had said we had a good time, but over time we were speaking less and less. More recently she told me she wanted to stay friends… but she had found someone else. For a while I felt rather down, but then I realized, I’ve been through this before, it’s nothing new. Besides, if she is not the one, then I just need to keep looking, to find someone better!

      To that regard, I know many of you would like to see me find someone who likes me in diapers, so I figure I’ll give it a shot. If you know good dating sites that a young lesbian could find a girlfriend who wants her staying in diapers, then let me know, and I’ll give it a shot! Now I don’t have the time to create/manage scores of online dating profiles, so make sure you’re giving me my best options. ;)

      Lately I visited Chicago again, this time over the St. Patrick’s Day weekend. It was a blast! I got to see friends, see new sites, make new friends, and go on many adventures. I got to stay with a friend which made the trip MUCH cheaper. I spent a lot of time with said friend, and we went from friends, to great friends I think ^_^

      I’m still holding the pattern that every time I visit my friends in Chicago, I leave after making more friends. I may of even found a potential roommate if I can find a job in Chicago. :) One interesting thing though was the trip back. Since I was traveling over night, I slept on the way. My sleep was intermittent throughout the travel, but later into the night, I fell into a deeper sleep, where I had a few dreams. A few were non-sensical like many dreams, but one stood out.

     In this dream someone (no idea who it was), was telling me that I needed “baby training”. I was confused as to what that was going to entail, or why I needed this. Almost instantly though, I found myself in thick diapers, with a pacifier in my mouth. I don’t recall if I used my diaper in the dream or if anything else happened, but that part stuck with me after waking up. I decided then, after I got home to put a diaper on again.

      Here I am then, sitting in a recently wet diapers, writing this new post. I’m just trying to figure out where to go from here. On one hand, I could just do as I have been, putting on a diaper if I really feel the urge to, or I could try to make them more of a part of my day-to-day life again. I’m not to sure. What I can say though is this, I have loved being able to have a place to blog my thoughts and adventures, and I have greatly missed all of your feedback. Anything you want to say in response to this, I’d be happy to see, whether it be comments, suggestions, or even questions, have at it, and have a good day! <3


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