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A short adventure

Published February 12, 2015 by diaperedgirl

Good evening everyone! I hope you’re all doing well with this wintry season.

I don’t know about you all, but I’ve been busy with work and social life, trying to have fun and all. :) I  haven’t had any more accidents like I was having before, though I’ve been thinking about going back to diapers for a bit. With that thought in mind, I decided to check to see what I have, and it looks like I have just under 40 Absorbency Plus diapers. The only issue with that, is if I’m in them 24/7 for this little adventure, I would need to wait a couple of weeks, until I’ve had the chance to finish some races I’m doing (running). The other option is stay in them whenever feasible with life. So wearing them 24/7 except when it doesn’t work, such as when going to a race.

Either way it wouldn’t last too long. If I used about 3 per day, I could get about 12 or 13 days out of them. Not a long time by comparison to what I’ve done before, but not a really short time either. What do you think would be better? Stay diapered when I can, or wait until I can stay 24/7?

<3 <3 <3

Happy Holidays

Published December 23, 2014 by diaperedgirl

I hope the holiday season finds everyone doing well. I myself am spending time with family out in California. As fun as it sounds to wake up Christmas morning in diapers and some cuddly footed pajamas, being with family makes that very hard. Hopefully I can still have fun. :-)

Thanks to moostermiley though, I now have some Absorbency Plus diapers. I just got them before I left on vacation though. I’ll probably wear them once I get home.

I wish you all a happy holiday and a wonderful new year! <3

Well Hello Again!

Published November 23, 2014 by diaperedgirl

I hope everyone is doing well. I know it has been quite a while since I’ve posted anything here.

As you know, around the breakup with my now ex-girlfriend, I stopped wearing diapers. I didn’t wear them at night, I didn’t wear them during the day, or anything. All in all, I just stopped being in them… until now.

I recently went through a surgery (Nothing crazy, I’m still ok :) ), after which, I was on some heavy pain meds. For anyone who has been under general anesthesia or even high end pain meds like Hydrocodone, you know they make you feel tired, lethargic, and can have an overall blah effect. Those meds along with having to stay hydrated during recovery cause me to need to pee a LOT. I’m talking about at least once every hour! This included at night, waking up almost every hour on the hour having to go to the bathroom…

Due to this, once I got home to my place, I felt it would be a good idea to return to diapers for the time being. For the first day or so, I was in diapers 24/7 so I wouldn’t need to worry about anything. As I got off the stronger meds, I weaned back to just diapers at night, so when I woke up in pain and/or needing to go to the bathroom, it wouldn’t be a problem. As I get closer to getting back to work, I realized I don’t have the same freedom to just get up and go to the bathroom whenever I need it. For this reason, for at least the first week, I will be wearing diapers to work as well.

I’m not for certain how long this will last, whether it be night diapers or diapers at work. It’s kind of interesting though, that by me being in diapers beforehand and by that, having diapers on hand, I found an easier way to deal with recovery. Even if it does mean an unrelated surgery put me back in diapers, lol.

Hope you all have a happy and healthy holiday! <3

All Things Come to an End

Published October 20, 2014 by diaperedgirl

This last week has been one full of a lot of emotions, stress, and frustrations. In some ways, diapers makes it easier, because I have one less thing to worry about, I can just let go. In other ways it can make things harder when you’re worried about diapers being noticed, whether it’s the smell or the bulk. Or the worry about being able to change when you need to. Due to that, I had reduced my time in diapers over the past week, until eventually I wasn’t in them at all. I know that is the opposite of what I said I’d be looking to do, but let me give you an idea of has been going on.

Lately I’ve been stressed at work about a number of things include, but not limited to financial issues, my injured ankle (from my trip to Colorado), and problems with my girlfriend. It’s hard to force ones self to make more money, but you can try to budget better, which I have been trying for. In some regard savings are building up, but it never seems to be fast enough, or in large enough amounts of money.

I hurt my ankle on labor day weekend in Colorado. It’s not broken or anything, but it’s strained bad enough that I can’t do a lot of active things I like to do, that help me deal with stress. From biking, to workout classes, to dancing. All of these things are difficult if not impossible due to the pain. All I can do with that unfortunately, is to take care of my ankle and hope it heals up quickly.

Then to the biggest thing on my mind lately, my girlfriend and I… we’ve been dating since late June, and we’ve definitely had lots of fun together. Hanging out, going on trips, playing videogames, cooking, I love it. We’ve had a blast doing all the things we’ve done. Have we disagreed? Fought? Yea, I mean, who a hasn’t? We always got past it though. The real issue ended up being something completely different. She is, and has been madly in love with me. It’s obvious in what she tells me, her actions, and more. The issue is, I only see her as a friend. As much as I care about her, love spending time with her, I am not now nor have I  been romantically attracted to her. With the drastic difference in how we felt for each other, I knew it couldn’t last nor end well. After thinking about it a lot, I decided we needed to talk.

I invited her over this last Saturday and we talked about us. Although we both want to try to stay friends, we have broken up at this point. I had a number of friends who have been there for me since the breakup happened, which has helped a lot, but right now, I’m just trying to organize my life, figure things out, and see where things go. I don’t think I’ll be posting for a while, especially since I won’t be in diapers often if at all.

You are all always welcome to message me on yahoo messenger or send me emails at Perhaps someday I’ll be back in diapers full-time, or perhaps not, but we never can truly know what the future holds. We just need to ride things out, see what happens, and make the best of it. <3

Everything so far

Published October 9, 2014 by diaperedgirl

As of today, it has been a little over 2 weeks since I’ve been back in diapers full-time. Now while I have had every intent to be in diapers 24/7, whether day or night, alone, with family or friends, a few snags have popped up in that plan. The first weekend of being back in diapers, I had a few hours where I was out of diapers. I had done this because I had been invited to participate in a photoshoot. Traditionally I may of been able to get away with thinner diapers like Goodnites pullups or something else, but due to the nature of the shoot, it was either no diapers at all or resign to having them be very obvious. Other than that though, I’ve been doing my best to stay in diapers 24/7 even when I have gone to the doctor’s office.

Another issue I’ve been running across, is the smell. The diapers I use are wonderful and hold a lot, but due to that, I’m in them a longer period of time. With being in them so long (sometimes upwards of 12 hours), the smell becomes very noticeable. While no one has outright said something about a strange smell or anything smelling bad, I notice as time goes on, that the smell is VERY apparent to me. I can only assume that some people that are near me notice it too. The last thing I want is for this to become an issue at work or when around my family.

On top of that, I am finding that I don’t always want to be in diapers. Some days I just want to be naked at home, other days I want to wear panties. This can either be just a desire to wear panties or to wear outfits that diapers just don’t work with, which tend to be my more fitted outfits.

Some positive things though, I am very thankful for being in diapers when I’m busy, especially at work. It makes it a lot easier when I can stay relaxed and not worry about the bathroom. They are also wonderful when I’m relaxing at home, or just waking up in the morning. Wetting myself is getting easier and easier, though I still don’t wet in my sleep. It has only been 2 weeks though, so we shall see what happens there.

With these issues, I’m not sure how long I will continue this time. If this will go for the full 6 months, or not. While being in diapers does have its upsides, the downsides are there too. This will be something I’ll be thinking more about as time goes on. I would love to hear your thoughts and feedback.

A Little Update

Published September 30, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Hi there everyone! ^_^

I haven’t been doing anywhere near as many updates as I’d like to, so I’ll give you a more comprehensive one this time. As of this morning, I’ve been back in diapers for a week. Overall it’s going well, and wetting myself is getting easier each and every time. At work, sometimes I just start to go when I’m sitting at my desk. Obviously sitting at my desk is a more relaxed state than walking or standing, so I believe it’s the first area I’ll notice it getting easier. It’s still a bit of a challenge to go when I’m moving around, though once I start, it does just come out.

The Absorbency Plus diapers definitely have their upsides, but also some downsides as well. It’s wonderful how absorbent they’ve been. I only use about 2 ever day. I usually put one on after showering when I get up. I then don’t need to change again until around halfway through my shift at work. That diaper I’ve been staying in till the next morning usually. Downside though is since they hold so much, they do bulk up a bit. On top of that, the smell does get a bit strong towards the end since at that point I’ve been in the same diaper for 8-12 hours depending on if it’s the one I wore to bed or not. So far though, no leaks, which is great! Even if they do happen though, I do have my mattress cover in place. :)

Overall lately, I’ve been spending time with my girlfriend, and things are going alright. We had a nice date over the weekend and saw the movie Maze Runner. I thought it was pretty awesome, and having a diaper on during the movie was great! A few weeks back, I’m also trying to build my savings back up, so I’ve been doing overtime at work. All those things have meant that I’ve been  more absent from the blog and my yahoo messenger. I do apologize about that, but I do plan on doing my best to keep in touch!

Have a great week! <3 <3 <3

Very soon!

Published September 11, 2014 by diaperedgirl

Hey there everyone! I hope you are all doing well. I know things have been busy and crazy on my end, and I hope to catch you up with this post :) Recently I went on a backpacking trip to Colorado. It was absolutely fun, though I have to say, might not be able to do that so well once I’m in diapers full-time. Just the issue of carrying all the diapers used and not in and out of the park. I went on this trip over labor day weekend with a good friend of mine and my girlfriend. While we had fun in general, the trip showed some flaws/issues my girlfriend and I have in our relationship. It really made me question whether we should be together or not.

We ended up getting together at the beginning of last weekend to talk about it all. It was a long conversation, and not a fun one, but I think it was one we both needed. While you can never know for sure how a relationship will turn out, we’ve decided to give things a little longer before any big decisions are made, so we shall see how that goes. In the mean time, we’re going to do our best to enjoy our time together, and communicate the best we can.

Now I’m sure many of you are excited for me to get back to diapers, and rightly so, after all it starts very soon…. only 12 more days! It would seem it is probably a good idea I get back in to diapers soon with an experience I had recently. Last week, a friend of mine was celebrating her birthday, so after work I joined her at a bar she wanted to go to. I definitely had a lot of fun, and a few drinks. Had to use the bathroom a couple times which was fine, until I had to go at the end, right when they told everyone they needed to leave. On top of that, another person needed a ride home, so here I was needing to pee and giving someone a ride home too. I ended up getting them home just fine, and got back to my place, or at least the parking lot… As it was I ended up losing control after I got out of my car. I didn’t expect anything like this at my age, at least not until diaper training had been underway, but I wet my pants right there in the parking lot… I’m just glad it was late at night and I was alone. I was sooooo embarassed. Due to that happening, you can see why I’d be thinking it’s good I’m getting ready to be back in diapers full-time.

I did get my order in for my first case of diapers, which did arrive yesterday. For those that are wondering, I did decide to go with Absorbency Plus, Level 4 diapers as my diaper of choice. ( At this time I will be wearing just these ones, day and night. I’m hoping it will work out rather well without being too hard to hide. :) I am still in the preparation stages for this though, and will be ordering a mattress cover soon so I don’t have to worry about night time leaks.

At this time the original plan is to stay in diapers for 6 months while trying to make myself completely bladder incontinent. I will be attempting that by making sure I drink lots of liquids day and night to help practice keeping my bladder relaxed, while staying in extra absorbent diapers to ensure my confidence in my diapers. I am still looking at hypnosis to help aid in becoming incontinent, but don’t have anything picked up/figured out for certain. After talking to my girlfriend about this previously, she did mention liking the idea of my staying in diapers beyond the 6 months. At one point she said “If you end up enjoying it, why stop?”, so she seems to like the idea of me remaining in diapers.

Now that also depends on a few things. If we end up breaking up, then I’m not sure I will continue with this, or at least not beyond the 6 or so months. Part of the reason I decided to do it (not the entire reason, just part), was that she liked the idea of me going back to diapers. Another thing is that while doing my best to save up money while still having a little fun, money may be tight. If it comes down to it, I may need to stop if finances do become an issue. That being said, we can hope for the best, and I hope to have you all with me on this journey to diaper dependence.

Have a great day, and stay awesome! <3


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